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Name: Jen
Birthday: 6/9/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: English. Winter Accessories. Subtitles. Reading. Boys. People Watching. Meeting New Friends. Poetry.
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1/2/2006
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| This is it.
It is the summer before the end of college.
HEY SUMMER -- I've got big plans for you.
I already got the ball rollin' and it goes like this.
Orientation.
Vegas.
Home.
Del Mar Fair.
SPAIN.
Vegas?
Unicamp!
LA!
Home.
Last Year of College!
Summer? I'm ready for you.
Life? Just hold off a little bit.
Okay?
Because when you're minor is being
"disbanded" you need to find a new plan.
For now,
I think KNOW
that this summer is going to be
AMAZING.
and us? Me and him?
We're going to make things better.
WHAT? YOU GUYS ARE NOT OKAY?
Yeah, a lot of the time we are not.
So long distance?
Spain to LA, yeah that's far,
IS going to work.
So,
come on,
let's play!
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| I'm feeling really lonely,
San Diego just ain't the same.
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| It's Friday night, yet again and once again I am at my apartment, this time alone.
Jen Min isn't getting ready to go to Frank's and John isn't knocked out on my bed.
Instead, the apartment is entirely empty
I've been done with finals since Tuesday, why am I still here?
Truth of the matter is, I love being at school.
I've been extremely nostalgic these past few weeks, and I've come to realize that really after college ends, all my friendships made here are pretty much over. We'll all go to our respective homes, or go to different grad schools. We won't be going back to the same city where we grew up, where we will may be call each other, or may be hang out, we're going different ways. With Jen Lin leaving for Japan next quarter, it makes the thought of parting ways with all my college friends even more scary and heartbreaking. Although I have only known Jen Lin for two quarters I love how she has endless drunk stories to tell, and always feels like baking, even with a final the next day. I guess it's inevitable we'll all split up eventually.
It's Friday night and I want to go home.
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| It's Friday night.
I am sitting at home, when there are 6 different event invitations listed on my facebook events page. Instead of being at "EVAN'S AND SANDEE'S BIRTHDAY EXTRAVAGANZA" or at some event for Yu Jiang's frat, I am sitting at my desk.
There was a general laziness in the air today. I woke up at 7:35 this morning as the alarm on John's white chocolate goes off. I roll over and whine, as I push John out of bed. He never wakes up on time.
It's 10:37, Jen is getting ready to head over to Frank's and John is asleep behind me. Looking back I see my half white half chinese boyfriend of 8ish months.He is curled up in fetal position wearing grey jeans and a "28 Weeks Later" shirt. This is it, this is him, this is us. He twitches a little. "MmmHmm" he says as he continues to sleep on this last second to the last Friday of spring quarter. "Bye Jen" the other Jen says as she walks into the darkened hallway and out the back door.
It's Friday night.
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| So I have not been on Xanga in years and I have no clue what prompted me to actually write in here but here goes.
So the inevitable is coming.
College is coming to an end, ( yeah I know I have another year but still) and I guess you could say I got my "college experience" but is this really it? I've been thinking a lot about life and I don't know what to think about it.
Anyway,
I'm screwing up one of the best things in my life right now
... and I don't know why.
adios.
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